Friday, October 23, 2009


That is a good word to describe what I have felt in the past almost 4 weeks. Overwhelmed with excitement as I went into labor, and with some pain through the process. Overwhelmed with joy to greet our little boy as he entered the world. It's amazing how you can be overwhelemed in a good way, or a bad way, and sometimes both at the same time.

Over the past few weeks, I have been overwhelmed with the generosity of our family and friends. So many people have brought us meals, given Jameson cards and gifts, called from out of town to see how we are doing. People have taken time out of their busy schedules to help us out and share in our joy. Friends and family have offered their insight and shared their experiences as we have dealth with new things or had issues come up we weren't sure how to deal with. They have taken our calls, stopped by our house, etc. Even doctors and lactation consultants have gone beyond the call of duty to help on weekends or off hours when needed. I can't imagine trying to care for an infant without all of that overwhelming generosity.

Then there has been the down side of being overhwelmed. Overwhelmed with learning how to care for this little guy. Figuring out what is wrong when he cries. Overwhelmed with pain as nursing hasn't been an easy process. Overwhelmed with tiredness after long fussy nights. Overwhelmed with wondering where all the hours in the day went, where I used to get so much done and now can't even find time for a shower. Overwhelmed with how little I know about caring for babies when this little man's whole existence relies on me right now. There is so much to overwhelm me.

But the BEST overwhelming feeling is when I look at his little face and hands and toes and am completely and utterly overwhelmed with how much I love him. I am completely, hopelessly, head over heels in love with this little guy. He is perfect, this treasure, this blessing from God, and I can't begin to thank God enough for him. The other things will work themselves out, but the overwhelming love I am so grateful for, and I know it will just continue to increase with each day. I LOVE JAMESON!